Whispers seek outpouring of strength
An omen to portend of this time
They cross in front of me
And begin to run
I watch and feel the urgency
Speed and agility in union
Bending to cross the creek
They serpentine to the right and pick up speed
The other moves steadily unaware
They head right for impact
Hit she lay on the ground in shock
Gathering around with good intention
A small group convenes
Is she dead
They ponder her fate
Prayers move off them to her
Slowly she comes around
Moving behind obstacles
Hidden from view
She moves opposite the herd
Away from the scene and the danger
She emerges
She crosses over in front of me again
As she moves through the dirt and mud
That is this road
She trips and stumbles
Then returns to her feet
Her grace strength and stamina obvious
She picks up speed
Still somewhat apprehensive
Now understanding this close call
She moves out to the forest alone
The depth of her injuries unknown
She has survived another day
My heart pours out with love to this sign
This inspiration of divine timing
We all survive each day
Until it is the day we do not
I will take my hits
With some I may trip and stumble
But I will return to my path
And continue with the grace of an Elk

Tatiacha ~ March 3, 2011

New Pathway

Creeping into view a new pathway is emerging
Eagles soar above
They follow the serpentine flow of the river below
Ice lingers along the banks crackling in the winter sun
I call out for greater sight like the eagles above me
Allow me to see where this pathway leads
For this moment I am grounded
No sight is granted
I must simply tread this winding pathway with my heart
Trust every turn
Acknowledge every stone
Every tree along the way
Root out my foundations and strengths to carry me forward
A new beach is uncovered every time the tide goes out
These emotions have been beating our shores battering us
But the tide has now turned
No one knows what we will find here
Everything has been changed
Some things seem fresh and new
Others damaged from the tidal surges
How they mesh from here we must wait to see
Give over the spirits say
Allow yourself to be receptive to any outcome
One thing leads to something greater
This is the time for dominoes to tumble in a preordained order
I know not this order
All that is seen is the tipping of the first
There is no longer free will choice in this sequence
There is a loss of perceived power
Leading the mind to ponder things unthinkable
Why would such things ever be preordained
Even the mind knows they would not
Still in the absence of the normal it wanders forth in deception
I begin to trust this unfolding
As I become accustomed to its essence
I know I must move farther to embrace it fully
A destiny thus waiting is calling
Elements moving in or out of my pathway
Chosen of my Creator must be accepted with grace
For every sorrow I may befall on this trail
There are joys I am being led to
I will feel each feeling
Give it its truth and acknowledgement
Then continue forward on this new pathway

Tatiacha ~ February 11, 2011

Unified Force

Nudging gently into the space with no time
This energy speaks with its own voice
Its language is clear not obscured
It was offered freely in an act of healing and love
Received without limitation it blends
The merging is infinite and gentle
Life force coming from a source of beauty
It asks only to be received fully
There is no resistance only gratitude
I breathe it in with each breath
Infinitely one it finds perfect harmony
It envelops discord and transmutes it to perfection
It knows me with intuitive intelligence
Directly it focuses to the highest good
Uplifting the flesh, the thought, and emotions
My soul radiates to its vibration
Tunes in to hear it whisper words of divine love
There are no bounds to this gift
No timeline or frequency can contain it
Moving through every possible expression
There is unlimited expansion at its command
All aspects are here and now
This energy has dominion to make it so
Every tentacle drawn to core for integration
The peace becomes us as one
Once two polarities seeking balance
Are now one unified force

Tatiacha ~ January 9, 2011

The Sword of Power Thus Passed

Red the earth stone
Solid under my feet
Rimmed in spotty green hues
Saturated by the falling rain
Fallen in the night’s passing
My earth glows below me
Filled with life force
Reaching up through my feet
It fills me with radiant warmth
Each step on this trail solid
Moving with purpose
The movement of female force
Strong in its vulnerability
Love is the sword of this freedom
Full expression brought forth
It can find no resistance
For there is no stronger force
Dare one to stand upon this sacred rock
And proclaim otherwise
All who have walked this trail before us
All who come after join in time and space
We raise this sword of love to full strength
And know these truths
Our earth
Our providing mother
Guides our steps
Through her sacred places
I place my foot bare upon her foundation
One by one the others do the same
We speak out with one voice
Sacred place to sacred place
We take our right of flowing power
Moving between us, the earth
And the divinity of all that is
We claim our rights as faithkeepers
As divine grandmothers
Regardless of bodily age
Servants to the whole
The divine flows though us
From spirit to earth
From earth back to spirit
Divine feminine principle
Takes its rightful place
There is no other pathway
It is preordained now
Expressed in blessings for all life
The sword of power thus passed
Universe has ordained
The earth hath bowed allegiance
We take our planet
The power now fully ours
All not in harmony must move aside
Where the power of love is wielded
There is no battle to be fought
We stand unfaltering
Permission granted on all levels
Feet firmly set in stone
Every location now under our command
The future generations of all species
Ours to make whole
There will be no foundation granted
To any energies moving counter
To the divine force of all that is
So be it
The grandmothers have spoken

Tatiacha Engtovo Bhodsvatan ~ January 8, 2011

Void of All Worlds

Spinning effortlessly into a sea of stars
My mind and spirit fly free of body
I am infinite like all that surrounds me
My perceived self scatters in all direction
I merge into the specs of light
The space between me filled with undeniable peace
All things are born here in the space between
Empty black void of unconscious truth
Still and motionless it appears from any given place
But the currents move out in pure intention
They instantaneously move without perception or understanding
They touch the sparks of light that rim the edge of the void
Exploding its display of color in a multitude of fractal patterns
The patterns build and grow until they circle back
The mind and spirit of the originator receives the acknowledgment
It is intended using the law of no harm
The space between accepts the intention of no other law
The void is alive with and without space and time
From the stars in the galaxy to the place within my cells
There is no past present or future
No tangible or intangible differentiation
Any limitation previous perceived abandoned
I am reborn in this void of all worlds

Tatiacha Engtovo Bhodsvatan ~ 12-16-10

There Is None Here

Temptations they are not

They wish themselves to be

There is no interest

Barely lay notice of such

Two worlds collide here

One takes only part of the other

What you offer is left behind

It is irrelevant

If only you knew this

We would laugh

It offers no comparison

The other is far too great

Do you see it

No I understand you do not

How unfortunate

It is yours as much as mine

Would you seek it if you believed

I wonder

There was a time of no seeking

None was needed

It was here always


Freely expressed

I remember

At times I grieved its passing

Then I grabbed hold

Refused to let it go

From that point

It was never lost to me

I’ve had to watch as you struggled

You lost it

You did not even look back

Now you seek pity

There is none here

Engtovo ~ September 13, 2007


Notes jingle in my brain

They have not come together

To make song

But they want to

Come forth notes

Makes yourself into the perfect expression

Of mathematics

Sacred geometry

Music that heals

Sooths the soul

Take rhythm

Take form

Let words join with you

Let emotions be expressed with you

Allow the synergy of life to be

Blended into your pattern

Stop jingling in my mind

Put yourself to instruments

Place your pattern on tongue

See the beauty

The pain

The ordinary

The extraordinary

Move from my core

Touch the core of others

That is your purpose

To touch

To express

You are movement

Move out of my brain notes

Move into the physical world

To be the bridge between physical

And non physical

That is who you are

Engtovo ~ January 24, 2004

Whispering Realms

Whispering realms

Tell me of ways of peace

I understand now deeply




All things come to these

My perceptions have caused

Me to expect more of myself than is reasonable

Thus I must condemn myself

For not being able to comply

Such a circle of pain has ensued

Now the whispering realms

Have shown me the ways of peace

Shifting my perceptions

Releasing expectation

Discerning what is reasonable

Embracing this moment with joy grace and forgiveness

Peace becomes the perspective

Acceptance the tool

And love the sustaining voice

Of the whispering realm

That is me

Engtovo ~ November 14, 2001

You Are Here Now

Deliverance is not a concept

But a choice

Delivering yourself from limitation

There is only a small hint of billions of lights known

To the mortal in man

There are too many journeys to tread them all

In order to know and understand them

Come home

To the arms of those who love you

You are free by choosing freedom

There is nothing that can hold the power of your Godness

There is nothing expected of you

There are offerings of ways that you may serve

None are right or wrong ways

They are just that


God always offers choices

There is not a force that limits the ways in which God creates

There is no energy that can combat a prayer in truth

There is only love within this great universe that is created of love

Bring yourself the gift of letting go

Let go without the need to do it in any particular way

It is not something that needs to be done in any given emotion

Or free of any given emotion

It is pureEmotionless

Feel that which you wish to let go of sitting upon your hand

Simply turn your hand over

Nothing more or less

Let it fall away from you

Let it go back to the fluid universe from which it sprang

God does not judge it

Whatever it is

Simply let go

You are here now Tatiacha

You have never been distant

From that which is the truth in your heart

It connects here to us

Those who you understand

Every moment we ask God to help you home

Every moment that prayer is answered

You are here now Tatiacha

Step aside from yourself

See that which is really true

Think not with the mind of mortal

Think with God’s mind that you were given at the beginning

The time is at hand

Your prayers have been answered in the affirmative

You know that God has seen the way for you

Trust this knowingA

ll that is

Is at your command

This is your right

It was given to you with many gifts

You have never used it unwisely

There is nothing to stop the motion of that which becomes you

There is only the divine that can express as truth

Anything else is false

You are sitting at the helm of your very own divine kingdom

It is your sphere

Your heaven

It is a powerful force and it is time to move this force

There is no place other than here

It is not a physical here

It is a spiritual here

There is only one place

Your sphere

Use it dear friend

The Dharljas ~ Engtovo ~ November 6, 2001

You Who Are Of God

Seek not

The truth of the unfathomable

For no difference does it truly make

What is seen is seen and has been perceived

It cannot be understood in fullness

By the human mind

For it has been so long conceived

That is beyond the time frame of your life span

Before your birth

These days were known to spirit

These tragedies foreseen

More tragedies are coming

They will not break you

You who are of God

They will not own you

You who are of God

They will not take your life

You who are of God

Walk now upon the mighty waters

Of the emotion of human kind

Know that you shall traverse the falling debris of chaos

There is no harm that can befall

You who are of God

The Bible speaks of this time

The Veda’s speak of this time

The Koran speaks of this time

The Torah speaks of this timeThe Bagavad Gita speaks of this time

The stories of the ancestors of all races

All religion

Speak of this time

You who are of God

Be not afraid

The Archangels ~ Engtovo ~ October 24, 2001

A Spiritual Desperado

At one with his horse he strides towards the mountains on a vision quest of sorts

his eye on the eagle awaiting him at the peak

he retains the focus of inner peace that has been all consuming

all illusive to him for his entirety… until now

when like a tiny seed that is sprouting in spring time

his heart is soaring with the inner winds of change that propels him forward

pulsing and surging with impatience to reach the top where she waits

the balancing of his inner essence

the feminine within

that he has sought to bring his completion

his pinnacle of faith awaits him in a place void of time

and he rides on to his destiny

his very spark and breath of life, his meaning

his journey has been long

it has left him parched and seeking tenderness

this thirst has no mercy

none at all, ruthless and driving him to the point of nothingness


undefined desperation so deep and unfathoming to his senses

a numbness overcomes him

and yet he is compelled to continue

for deep within him there is a vision that guides him

a dim vision, a promise

temporarily dimmed by his thirst for a life greater

a force stronger

a life divine

a life that is love

a life promised him by his spirit

his true essence

the embers within him that have brought him this far continue to glow & guide him

pointing him to where she waits

she will be ignored no longer

the force of destiny pulls him to the mountain & up the trail to her side

where illumination becomes him

no longer a desperado he has completed his journey home

Engtovo & Martina Tafolla with our guidesBestali and Ming Chou

May 21, 2001


I am feeling



Dreaming of eternity

as now

here inside

all around

free from your definition

things look bright

I will abstain

from redefining

that which needs no definition

Step up the energy

and remain

in a state of feeling

No need to direct or control

Engtovo ~ unknown date, 2000



has been made

alas it has been seen… received…acknowledged

the sign has been hung for such a long time

you stopped looking at it

you questioned whether it was relevant any longer

it is!

It is not forgotten

nor misplaced

it is held most sacredly


do not ignore it any longer

the old will not continue

cannot continue

if you refuse to see the gesture

the new may take you by surprise

you say you do not wished to be surprised


it is none other than what you truly desire

do you think you truly desire something bad?

gesture back

signs work both ways

the good, the bad, the indifferent

don’t hold it inside

set free the notion that anything gestured is unchangeable

it belongs to you

this world

it belongs to every vibrating piece of life

do you not vibrate?

shape your vibration into what you wish it to be

your surroundings will follow suit

make choices that are true to you

that may cause pain to others who want you to be other than who you are

You cannot be responsible for their desire to control you

you do not wish pain upon them

You are only being yourself

in the highest expression you are capable of

in this moment

that’s enough

you are not required to be more

or better

than who you are in THIS moment


has been made

alas it has been seen… received… acknowledged

prayers spoken

prayers heard

wisdom offered

wisdom heard

Your welcome

Guidance ~ July 15, 1999

The Golden Light

Gently floating to the sea

a group of angel friends and me

We came upon a waterfall

graceful as it made it’s call

Across the bridge we dared to go

entering right into the flow

My soul became the drops of rain

up to the sky and down again

Spraying up upon the plants

The tiny leaves begin to dance

They take me deep within the stock

down from there I begin to drop

Into the earth I then flow

when I get to the spring I sparkle and glow

From here I look upon the sky

the place of creation for you and I

The angel friends begin to sing

the bells in the wind begin to ring

I keep on going on like this

not a creature or plant will I miss

The oneness of all I have learned

brings me the peace for which I’ve yearned

They gave me the gift of the golden light

deep in my soul it feels so right

I come back to my body filled with love

thank the angels from up above

Go back to my busy worldly life

filled with craziness and strife

But every time I want to cry

the angels all begin to sigh

Call on your gift of golden light

it’s always there to serve you right

We came to you because we care

call on the light when life’s not fair

Now it lives deep within your heart

but you must call to do your part

You’ll have the peace you always sought

all of the battles have been fought

Welcome home to the mother’s arm

ignore the sirens and car alarms

You hold the world in your hands

we want to make sure you understand

If you ever stumble at all

the golden light will catch your fall

The golden light is the greatest gift

allow the angels to give you a lift

Allow this gift to be received

and you will never be deceived

This is all we have to say

your angel friends will call it a day

The Angels ~ October 4, 1994

Glass Rock

All the flamboyant talk

the glass ride of rock

image perceived

only a mirage

your deceived

you see through what is real

cause the truth the glass does conceal

the glass side of rock

Look into the crystal cut

look into the glass rock but

shield your eyesthe glass rock lies

Idea present within your mind

struggling ignorant of what you’ll find

look only at the best

looking through windows

not seeing the rest

Sometimes clear

and sometimes tinted

edges so sharp

truth only hinted

broken with rejection

you only see what you want in the reflection

Engtovo ~ May 7 1986

Is Within Me

all that is

is within me

all that will be

is within me

all that has been

in this life and others

is within me

this life is merely a growth of my soul

life holds only that which must be learned

to make my soul complete


one with a universal life force

one with warmth

one with eternity

one with the brilliant light of love

the light that is

is within me

all that is

is within me

help me to find all that is within me

and we will find

all that is

Engtovo – January 18 1984