Elk

Whispers seek outpouring of strength
An omen to portend of this time
They cross in front of me
And begin to run
I watch and feel the urgency
Speed and agility in union
Bending to cross the creek
They serpentine to the right and pick up speed
The other moves steadily unaware
They head right for impact
Hit she lay on the ground in shock
Gathering around with good intention
A small group convenes
Is she dead
They ponder her fate
Prayers move off them to her
Slowly she comes around
Moving behind obstacles
Hidden from view
She moves opposite the herd
Away from the scene and the danger
She emerges
She crosses over in front of me again
As she moves through the dirt and mud
That is this road
She trips and stumbles
Then returns to her feet
Her grace strength and stamina obvious
She picks up speed
Still somewhat apprehensive
Now understanding this close call
She moves out to the forest alone
The depth of her injuries unknown
She has survived another day
My heart pours out with love to this sign
This inspiration of divine timing
We all survive each day
Until it is the day we do not
I will take my hits
With some I may trip and stumble
But I will return to my path
And continue with the grace of an Elk

Tatiacha ~ March 3, 2011

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Flip of Polarities

Can there be a time for which
Bottom is top and top is bottom
A flip of polarities found with ease
Transition of energies sure to please
I sought out this flip from near and far
It makes sense to the heart maybe not the head
Restores grounding to some if not all
Those who resist will surely fall
Like looking though a window
The view is clear but with boundary
There is protection within this place
Of those outside there will be no trace
Trembling the earth as energies flip
Physical and emotional tied together
We change ourselves we change our world
Oceans of water inland are hurled
Look to the tragedy should you desire
What looks bad may very well be good
Open hearts are freely dancing with the flow
Dark forces now have no choice but to go

Tatiacha ~ January 8, 2011

Arrival

Trampled
Twisted dreams filled with skies falling
Breaking
Rocking
There is no relief
Fleeting from one to another
They are angry
Stopped with regret
One moment of peace moves through
It is still and quiet
Then it all begins again
Arms outstretch to grasp
And miss with slight touch
Pendulum swings back
There is no center
Flying
Suspended
Time stopped in awareness
Chaos ensues
It is below
It is around
It cannot reach in
There is no sense of place
It is endless and immediate
Painful in time
Empty of breath
No sense of landing
Only arrival

Tatiacha Engtovo Bhodsvatan ~ 11-14-10

Mandlebrot Quickening

The general question was does it get easier?  I know I haven’t talked in depth about some of the stages below in the quickening, but if you haven’t already check out that mandlebrot video on the blog.

Some parts continue to be hard and some parts you get used to and they rarely effect you like they once did.  So how’s that for clarity  LOL  On the physical side I find that some things lessen like I have had this issue for about 20 years where the left side of my back will just seize up and leaves me in massive pain.  A long time ago that could happen and it would leave me down and out for a couple weeks.  Now when it happens, it is a day and half to two days, because I figure out what I am in resistance to, process it though, and as soon as I do the spasms start to release and it all goes away.  So the physical stuff changes but then your cycle increases so sometimes it seems like the psychical stuff is worse.  Like before the kundalini opens a normal person has that seven year cycle where the body renews/ replaces every cell in the body.  After the kundalini opens that increases… oh this is yet another thing I was going to write about on the blog, it is connected to the mandelbrot video I put up there one day let me grab the actual numbers  ok here it isWhen the kundalini opens that changes you to a 5.146 year cycle of renewal so you can process more crap in less time without killing yourself with cancer or something

Then when you reach the inner circle /nirvana/samadhi stage it goes to 4.268 years

Then when you pop open your sphere it goes to 3.278 years

When your sphere is fully golden it goes to 2.794 years

When the linolic flow opens, which I think is what we determined happening to your recently, it goes to a 2 year cycle and you enter the final purification.

Once in the final purification stage how fast it increases depends on how much you have to clear in there I think last time I checked I was cycling at about 30 days and that is harsh and at the same time you just gradually get used to it, as you move through it, so it seems normal even though you have these days or a week that are filled with physical or emotional challenges.  Eventually for a Dharlja their cycle is every 22 -24 hours which is why they at that point need no sleep and only need 2 hours of mediation per cycle so they try to be in meditation right when they hit that zero point in the cycle which if you watch the mandlebrot thing it is right when you get to the original mandlebrot symbol which is a big black blob.  So if you are getting really stressed you are and are not coping well you are likely getting close to the end of a cycle as things move quicker and going into meditation and visualizing coming into the void black space of new beginning helps move from one cycle to the next.  Even you were on a one year cycle if the whole month before you cycle ends you specifically do meditation to assist in moving toward that void it will be easier.  Considering how fast you went from sphere popping to linolic I would certainly guess you went whipping past the two year mark almost immediately.  I don’t know if you really experienced that blissful nirvana stage they allowed me to stay there for 2 days I think it was!  They didn?t want me to get stuck there because it’s so wonderful you would never want to leave.  But the up side is when you get to the Dharlja stage you are cleared and you get that bliss back only with immortality and a bunch of other cool stuff LOL  For me from then into the final purification I had a greater sense of flow that some of it was lost in the purification for times and now seems to come and go depending on what I am clearing.  There were times really early on in the sphere stage where I could just open my mouth and wax poetic about God in a way that is hard to even remember now LOL  The final purification stage though is what was attempted to be represented by the story of Jesus going out for the 40 days and 40 nights and having to face down satan.  If only 40 days and nights in the desert could do it I would have been done a long time ago.  The speed at which you are passing through these phases is staggering so I wouldn’t be discouraged by the fact that it has been a really hard period of time.  For most people trying to do it at that speed would kill them and then not knowing what all was happening to boot  I can’t imagine how hard that is because spirit instructed me though each phase they told me I couldn’t stay in nirvana, that we were popping open the sphere, to get it clear, that took several days, when to make it golden etc.  So I knew what I was going through I think I may have gone insane if I was completely unaware of what was happening!  So know that just your faith in the process and continuing along at such a pace shows what a strong soul you are.  Spirit always says when I have a bad day and want to give up that I wouldn?t be so tried and ready to give up if I wasn’t almost there!    So no losing faith now you’ve already been through way too much, so just get used to reminding yourself that anything that comes on any level that is unpleasant is temporary.

New Earth

Waters move

Mountains reach higher

Some blow their tops

The earth shakes and shivers

Animals sleep

Overseen by divine hands

A world is being reborn

It looks difficult

Painful

But it is no different

Than the butterfly

Ripping open the chrysalis

There is already a new earth

It is right under the crust

It is formed

In the image of perfection

Ready to burst forth

When the chrysalis

Is finally ripped apart

Earth mother will sit

While her symbolic wings dry

These continents when dry

Will fill with new life

The humans of the new earth

Will be free

Of their past incarnation as caterpillar

They will not crawl and toil and struggle

They will fly free

With joy

Bringing fertility to the new earth

With harmony

All will live as one

There will be no veil

Between earth and spirit

All creatures

Will feel the full love of creation

The suns

Blue and yellow will shine forth

Their full light

Illuminating day and night

The stars will shine

But there will be no full darkness

Laughter and song

Will fill the night

And the day

The rains will nurture the lands

The snows will fill the high mountains

Springs giving life to new rivers

Flowers blooming

Fruits pouring forth

Skies clear and pure

New earth

With the perfect innocence

Of the fluttering of butterfly wings

Being chased by

Joyous children laughing

 

Engtovo Bhodsvatan ~ June 14, 2008

True Woman

Woman

Presentation skewed

By a brainwashed populace

If woman is soft

She is weak

If woman shows strength

She is hard

Cold

A bitch

But woman is soft

Softness is her strength

It is where her knowing was born

When she presents truth

It is met with anger

Because the sheep

They are used to lies

It allows them to sleep gently

Truth dares jar them awake

They blame woman

Say she is harsh and nasty

Woman responds

You sleep little sheep

Truth it simply is

They band together

Attack woman more

Listen to nothing

Man comes along

Says same thing woman has said

Sheep worship him

Think he is strong

When he only stole woman’s words

Think he is kind and warm

While he lies

And takes their power

No wrong can be done by man

In the world corrupted by shame

No right can be done by woman

In the world corrupted by shame

A woman cannot lead

In a world of brainwashed sheep

Woman expects them to think

To participate

Man says only to follow

Soon women attack woman

Following the lead of man

Eventually the only women still on earth

Living the truth of woman

Keep silent

Knowing none can hear

Pray and wait

One day man will show himself

That day

True woman will come forth

Children will be taught

The truth of woman

And the truth of man that was lost

And women will be women

And men will be true men

Balance will be found

 

Engtovo ~ March 2, 2008

Last Vista

Vista ridge encompass my heart

Encircling my personal sphere

Every direction and offering

A gift

Beauty in pure form

Movement is constant and rhythmic

Changing the nature of each day

Storms roll in and purify

Then give way to glimpses of more

Those lost in the fog may perish

Too foolish to see the last breath

It’s here

We are witness

Expansion fills all my perceptions

It stops for no one

Waits for none

It spirals to its destination

My heart welcomes its vastness

There is no wrong way to look

Just look

Blood circles out and around the world

Not the blood of war

Not the blood of death

But the blood of life

Sustaining

Nurturing

Hydrating

Feeding

Life force

Red blood of the earth

Physical gives way to that which is greater

And is transformed immortal

Take it all in

This is the last vista of what is

The change complete

Different and equally beautiful

The heart documents these last moments

To be honored

Remembered

Released

So new life can begin

 

Engtovo ~ December 23, 2007