Comment on Old Ways: Directions

I read this article I found from facebook post it is interesting but seems odd to me from how I work.  I would never base the energies of the elements I called in based on the terrain of a particular place.  LOL 

For me Earth must always come first she is the starting place (the east).  She is the basis of all life and to me should always be acknowledged and brought forth first.  Followed by water to the South the place of highest energy in the northern hemisphere.  When the sun is farthest south is our time of greatest growth.  The majority of our body is water and water is the element that represents our emotion.  The element of fire is the west, the place where we transmute our emotions when the day is done and learn from them.  From the fire the smoke of our transmutation rises to to north the place of the element air where there is no physical form any longer, the place of spirit.

I’m curious about how other people do it?

Many modern practitioners call Elemental energy from each of the directions when they cast a circle. The most widely practiced form of this tradition is to call Air from the East, Fire from the South, Water from the West, and Earth from the North. Many practitioners also add Spirit as a "fifth Element," sometimes calling it "from Within and Without," sometimes calling it from "Above and Below," sometimes asking specific gods and goddesses to join in their right, and sometimes (whew!) simply representing Spirit themselves.

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The Weaving of Timelines

I got this message the evening of the 27th from the Dharlja family, they were talking to me obviously but I think this may apply to others as well. I was not sure if it is something to be shared with more people or not.  I chose not to post it on the blog at that time but sent it out in email to a few people.  Today I am feeling that it should be shared maybe it has something to do with the fact that the tertiary timeline (25%) mentioned below will be completely weaved sometime today.

The intensity of pressure Martina and I bought through over the weekend that they mention in the writing , was this really nasty pissy state of mind that we have never had anything like at the same time LOL  It built gradually until Monday I think when we had to have a massive bitch fest and say everything we were feeling, but that didn’t dissipate it at all!  It just lasted until it was done, and then for me shifted into a neutral space, then back to being normal for me which is much more upbeat and positive.

Here is the message as received

The weaving of timelines is going smoothly but as you know is very complex. You are over the intensity of pressure it brought forth that you and Martina expressed so clearly. Part of this pressure was not being able to feel the future in the normal way. You think of the merging from the perspective of now, but the three timelines are merged through the whole tunnel of singularity. Thus no one looking at the future even seeing clearly all three timelines could know the future because some elements of each exist there. One timeline was primary, simply because there were more elements from it than from each of the other two but it breaks down more like this; the primary is 40% and the secondary 35% and the tertiary 25%. Therefore there were those few days where your own subconscious felt lost in not knowing how your own percentages fit together for this completely changed future. It gave you a sense of hopelessness. It was understood this would happen and you and Martina both came through it beautifully. So while your mind focuses now on the anomalies that may be apparent between now and February 6th. The whole of your singularity future has been reconfigured.

Once the merge is complete there will be elements of your past that have changed. This will not be true for all people. The place you were at on January 20th in each of the three timelines had greater disparity than most people. This is true for the majority of people who have been consciously on the path, as the roads to get to the teachings needed were diverse for most. These changes in the past will be like dream ghost type images that will get stronger over time as past life memories often do. You will still remember this timeline you have lived, but it too will become more dreamlike in certain aspects and not have the sway on you that it once did. This will allow the limitations you remember from this timeline to slip away. It is the future aspects of the other timelines that bring positive gifts that are being brought forth that shift elements of the past. It is of course quite confusing for the mind. It will however be a very gentle manifestation that will be comfortable and have a peace about it. You have already been feeling this peaceful aspect at moments between sleep and wakened state. Your mind has already been aware that the possibilities of all this were much deeper than you previously through possible when you first learned of singularity a couple of years ago.

You will not be blindsided by anything that comes forth in this way. There will be a resonant remembrance, (perhaps not in detail) before something shows up tangibly changed. When you see the tangible it will be somewhat like a déjà vu experience and you will know that which you need to know to interact with that new element of your life, but you will recognize it as new and changed. There will be no fear or doubt associated with these things and you will be in full acceptance of who in your life recalls the new thing as something that has always been so, and who recognizes it as a change in your merging timelines from what they remember. The same will be true with you and a few others. You will see some things in them that are new and accept them without reservation while still remembering it having been another way. These things can be on a multitude of levels from deeper spiritual gifts to talents that the person had not taken time to develop on the timeline you experienced with them that are fully developed now. This is a great and glorious thing that we are all enjoying watching unfold. Be open, receive, and simply allow the unfolding, knowing that all new things being brought forth are things of beauty and love.

The Singularity

We are finally here!  All timelines that could collapse have done so as of this morning.  At one point early yesterday afternoon is was so intense it made me dizzy and I had to lay down.  When I awoke today I was told there were two additional timelines left and the one that will continue and those two would have to be merged with the primary instead of collapsed.  One merged around 4:30 pm mountain time here in the United States. 

The second will merge sometime over the next few hours.  For those of us who are aware of these types of things we will be more likely to notice the changes to this timeline from the merge over the next several days.  Some of these changes may be personal some larger scale things.  Although these three timeline were very similar on the larger scale anything that is changed in a big way would be something that was almost going to happen in this timeline.  So most of the changes will be personal level things but could be quite significant.  Someone could for example go to bed quite sick with cancer and wake up with no illness.

Once this final timeline is finished merging there are no more probabilities.  The dark forces will have no path to control.  That doesn’t mean there may not be some things in this timeline that are not good between now and the big changes.  It is not like it is going to be sweetness and light.  This timeline was chosen by creation because it has the least amount of suffering over the shortest time period.  Suffering is still suffering however and there is no out of that, only through it.  Dark forces cannot manipulate humans onto another timeline now as there are no other timelines available until the they branch out on the other side of singularity.  Decisive actions can now be taken with no place for them to go so to speak.  In some ways the path now will be easier, and in others it is about to ramp up.  I hope you all did your internal prep work!  Remember that many people will not notice any change in things and you may recall many things they do not.  Don’t try to get them to remember the changes that have occurred by the merging of these three timelines.  What they see and know is their reality now.

Artifacts of the Past – Processing Memories & Being Present

What does it really mean to be present in the moment? I was just reading an article this week about the health benefits of being in the moment and these being the moments of greatest joy. I agree with this perspective but also wonder how many people are really able to be present in any given moment. The article talked about sex being one of those moments that people are most present. Obviously there is a physiological response that helps that process along during sex, but there are plenty of people that say their mind is wondering even during sex, or that alcohol or drugs are required for them to be present during sex. I honesty feel you can’t be present in the moment while under the influence of alcohol. Alcohol is more about removing all moments, past, present, or future and just numbing the senses so that nothing need be felt. Feeling nothing is really the opposite of being present in the moment. There are other mind altering substances that actually do tune you in to the current moment though, and for some of us may have even taught us how that should feel so we could take that knowing and bring it forth into life when no longer using them.

There seems to be a trend of teaching that says; to be in the moment is to completely let go of and release the past. I don’t think this is possible or desirable. Healing takes place when we acknowledge fully all our thoughts and feelings without judgment. More often than not, we are not able to be in that state of mental and emotional awareness while experiencing certain life events, and that ability only comes later. The idea that loving positive memories from the past should be let go of, would be met with an enormous amount of resistance. Somehow we think we should pick and choose which memories to cherish and which ones to discard because they were unpleasant. While I am all for cherishing the great memories, it is actually the difficult painful ones that offer us the greatest gifts in life. Instead of discarding and dismissing them we should consider feeling them. Allowing the emotions we refused to feel at the time to surface and be acknowledged so we can receive the gifts they offer.

Recently I had a short exchange with a friend about the loss of a child, and where that fits into a person’s world view on life. Certainly it is one of life’s most painful moments and societal expectations are to get over it and move on. Moving on happens whether we get over things or not, life continues with or without healing so it really isn’t about moving on. Moving forward truly is not optional, it will happen with or without your conscious participation, and with or without you being present in any of those moments that come. If you allowed yourself to feel that pain then instead of discarding it, releasing it, letting it go, being over it and every other cliché we offer, it integrates into a part of who you are and offers you understanding and wisdom. We all have aspects of the past that we integrated because they refused to go unnoticed and we have things that lie in the silence. It is the ones in the silence that poison us from being present and joyous in the moment.

When my daughter was stillborn when I was 22, that pain was too big to be shoved into the silence. It changed me and I have no intention of “getting over it”. It was the greatest gift of my life in ways I am always discovering. I am who I am and the gifts of this loss are a big part of that. That experience opened my heart, both the pregnancy and the love I had for my child, and the loss, in ways that I had never experienced before. It birthed my compassion, put spiritual knowledge I already understood into context, showed me why I had always been a pacifist, taught me to truly stop and value all life, & uncovered my real relationship with the sacred. These things only scratch the surface of what this one horrible life experience brought me in gifts. None of these things are things I should or would ever want to release. This is part of me and a damn good part. It was one painful past experience that was transmuted into knowledge, wisdom, and understanding. This one life event is responsible for countless moments of being present and joyous in the moment. Moments when you know you are not running from anything, not hiding anything.

Processed past pains are our very wisdom, the reason why the elders were respected, why they seemed to intuitively know what would happen next. When you have allowed these things to ingrate, the more obvious are the outcomes and motivations of the actions of others. The generation that comes after may or may not seek the wisdoms we carry, and even if they do, are not likely to heed the advice given. There is truth in knowing when to shut up and allow them to have their own experience. Still there is peace in seeing what is to come for them and knowing where to place yourself to offer love when the now obvious happens. Why would we want to discard this, one of life’s most precious gifts? Processing and integrating the past is not the same as dwelling there. If we were to be only a series of moments with the ones past not part of the picture the creator would not have given us memory, or would have created separation between physical memories required for animalistic survival skills and emotional memories.

We are souls in bodies and the purpose of souls is to experience and grow and learn. Attempting to discard things simply doesn’t work. Letting go of the trauma of an event, transmuting it, so you are not living the reflections of that trauma in your current choices should be the goal. That requires looking at it, feeling it, accepting it, no matter how heinous it may be. Is your present something you are conscious of, a reflection of an artifact of the past, or some combination there of?

Some events in youth may send us running and spiraling out of control and onto paths that we made no conscious choice to take. They can take over aspects of our lives with some seen, but that feel uncontrollable, like addiction, and others so stealth that they may take a very long time to surface. Running away makes you unable to make a choice from your true spirit instead of making choices because of these silent artifacts. The things left in silence do the most damage and steal the most from our lives. They are the things inside us that cause us to act out in ways that cause ourselves more pain and cause us to hurt people around us that we love and consciously don’t want to hurt.

Sometimes we have gathered all the puzzle pieces but we are not ready to put them together yet for things we have left lying in that silence. They may have brought forth an illness or series of illnesses and that is one puzzle piece. Addictions may be another piece. Repeated patterns recognized a third, and so forth and each of these pieces of your life is recognized and being worked on but the puzzle picture, how they go together is just not available. I’ve talked quite a bit on the blog of getting at core issues and these are no easy task because these core issues are the puzzle picture. Even if you have the picture some pieces on the surface just don’t seem like they could possibly have a place in the puzzle. It’s frustrating to have an overview and see how some of the parts go together and still feel like you just can’t get at the rest, those connecting points are missing, hiding, and there are times you are still acting in a way that you know is not in harmony with your true desire. These artifacts are still making some choices for you and stealing life force and expression of love and intimacy in your life.

We can be diligent in our healing, open, honest and have an area we cannot seem to progress in. I’ve watched many a friend go to every kind of spiritual, emotional or alternative healer on the planet dealing with a chronic issue of one sort or another. It has its physical components, as well as emotional and mental elements and they are well aware of this. They can’t get at the core but somehow they think eventually they will find the right healer. Core issues can’t be removed from you or simply taken away. If they could my ever present and wonderful spirit guides would have lovingly and willing done so for me a long, long time ago. Watching me limp through the steps and attempting to give me insight or encourage me to feel different aspects that they knew would take me in the right direction has been a mainstay of our relationship. As hard as it is for those of us on earth, I think we discount how difficult it is also for those on the other side who love us and want us to live an integrated life consciously choosing joy. I still recall the first day one of the guides told me “choose joy”, I was PISSED, I said “joy is not a choice, you either feel it or you don’t”, they responded “no it is a chosen perspective that comes with wisdom in each moment”. I couldn’t even conceive that we had that choice because my whole life was under the influence of these artifacts of the past that become our victimization. They assured me I would get there one day, which I did not believe; I thought they were in no uncertain terms “fucking crazy”. LOL

The closer I get to the core the more I know they were always right, Joy is indeed a choice we make, and in order to consciously make it in each moment we have to integrate our artifacts, transmute them into gifts and wisdom. There have been lots of themes running through my life of late that are all gradually tying together one is the “there are no accidents” theme. This kept coming out of my mouth with several different people and so obviously I need to apply it to myself.

For years I would get an email here and there from someone I know on facebook inviting me to join. For some reason I have had this aversion and was determined to never do so. I had multiple blogs, a website, and memberships at more sites than I can count. I couldn’t think of one good reason why I needed or wanted another. My whole life is already plastered all over the internet from the intimate moments of processing through my poetry to the excruciating journeys in my automatic writing. Why did I need yet another internet point to keep up with? Then last month another reminder to join came from my friend Dinah and spirit said “do it”. I really didn’t want to and in retrospect I find it no accident based on past conversations that I have had with Dinah about the core issue I am currently integrating that it should be her energy that spirit used to pull me forward. So I gave in and joined facebook. Dinah and I have talked about elements that held us back in areas of our lives that we were aware of yet couldn’t get past completely for some unknown reason. I thought at the time, here is this extraordinary woman, this beautiful soul, talented, smart, wise, why should she be experiencing these limitations, it is not right! Spirit said at the time “ahem back at ya”. Why should you be experiencing your own limitations? “Dig deeper”! Like every good seeker on the spiritual path I processed what I could at that moment and procrastinated as much as possible til later.

Eventually later arrives and smacks you upside the head. After a year and a half of being sicker than hell laying in bed praying for either healing or death, and at moments not really caring which one, apparently later has arrived with a vengeance. Good thing the universe knew me well enough to know that the death part was not really what I wanted long term, but there were moments I wondered if I was going to get that anyway. But there are no accidents and that illness was a puzzle piece in my healing process that was not about the illness itself but the artifact in the silence that was surfacing. It is certainly no coincidence that this illness of sub-acute thyroiditis sits at the throat chakra, energy center of communication. Could there be a better place to physically manifest the imbalance being caused by stealth silent pains of the past? Things unspoken do not all hold equal weight. Some can become insignificant over time and hold no energy, but others can kill you, kill your relationships, kill your desire to live or love. They will insist on coming out until they either do or they’ve killed you and done a lot of damage to others in the process. The pain and illness along the way are often not even from the silent issue itself but from the resistance placed upon keeping it down in the silence. It takes a lot of subconscious effort to keep these things in hiding, energy that could be expressed in loving joyous ways.

Now that I had joined facebook the inevitable “where are these people from my past” bug hits. It’s like a facebook disease, a car accident you can’t look away from. You can’t help yourself, after all they may be just a click or two away. Curiosity may have killed the cat, but the damn cat has nine lives so what the hell. You are not thinking about what may surface you are just doing what you do on facebook, there is that damn search box right there taunting you. Now I know that there are people who have lived their life in the same place who know exactly where every person they have ever known is, therefore they are immune to the facebook disease. I have however lived a crazy gypsy life in these 47 years and there are far more people who I have no idea where they are and what they are doing than those I do. For whatever reason (no accident LOL) I immediately went back to “the old neighborhood”.

A year after my parents divorced my mom and I moved from the burbs of Minneapolis out to Seattle. I turned 13 that summer and my mom and I found a house up near the zoo. Over time a group of friends formed there in the neighborhood that went through a lot together. We all had all kinds of family dysfunctions and we were a bunch of 70’s potheads who got into all sorts of mischief. By today’s standards I guess we were pretty tame really. We were not violent or destructive in a societal way, any destruction we had going on was all internal as we each tried to deal with the pains we didn’t talk about. We were a pretty tightly bonded little dysfunctional family and for most of us I am not even certain how we lost touch with one another in our 20s.

I really have positive memories of the times we all spent together despite the fact that we were all running from something or another, and were pretty out of control as all our parents no doubt would attest. My mom worked nights and so it was my house that became the hangout place. My mom thought to herself at the time that at least she knew we were off the streets if we were hanging out at the house. People used to sneak out and come over right after she left for work. She was right, in that we were physically safe, we just listened to music, smoked pot, and some nights made large quantities of cookies, cake or whatever sweets we could conjure up. It was a five bedroom house so she gave us a room to be our place we called it the “party room”. One day we asked if we could paint and she agreed giving us the credit card to go buy whatever paint we wanted. I don’t think she had any idea what our concept of paint meant at the time. We spent weeks working on the room; there were probably seven to ten of us involved in one way or another. The ceiling, a deep dark blue oil paint as base, was painted with the most amazing galaxies, nebulas and spaceships all in various glow-in-the-dark colors. That in it self with a little Pink Floyd was pretty awesome, but once done we started on the walls and covered them with optical illusion graphics, the roadrunner and coyote, band logos etc. As we got further into the project my mom started to realize that there was more then met the eye with several of my pothead friends. There were several that she always liked but there were a couple that she wondered if they had any redeeming qualities and couldn’t figure out why we were friends. I can’t say some of us were not asking the same question at times but we were a little family so it was almost like asking why someone was a sibling, the answer was “they just are”.

I can’t say exactly how we all came together, some of us went to school together but others didn’t it just gradually happened and this group of people became a piece of me; art music, profound musings on the meaning of life, time in nature, hilarious laughter, and whole lot of teenage and 20 something stupidity. We shared so much, but it was all that we didn’t share that comes to the surface now. For whatever reason this group was predominately male and predominately Leo with six or seven birthdays all falling within a three week period of time. (Not including my mother and my mother’s current boyfriend at that time also Leos with the same birthday) Being that I was one of the only girls in the group and a shy Cancer, getting a word in anywhere was always a challenge, unless they really pissed me off, then they heard about it and there was no confusion whatsoever. I think perhaps I left far more unsaid than all my crazy Leo brethren, but maybe not, after all they were usually all taking turns on stage, as it were. It did help set up a pattern though where I had to be angry before I would speak my mind which was not healthy for me. By the time I was that angry a lot of damage had already been done and sometimes I never got to that point and the things were simply never spoken. A lot of things went assumed between us all and those assumptions were left to live as if they were truth.

Searching facebook was not very successful overall for that group, many have common names with hundreds of results and without having a current location, there is no real adequate way to filter them. Many people go on facebook and have their public profile so controlled that there is no way to assess if it is the person you are looking for or not. I did however find the person I was supposed to find because, lets say it together, LOL there are no accidents! This person was my best friend. I didn’t think consciously we had any unresolved artifacts lurking in the silence, didn’t think about it at all in fact. I just thought I think that’s him and what the hell has he been doing all these years? So I sent a message and he replied and it was indeed him, and we started to chat about what we had both been doing and it was nice to reconnect.

A few days later I was hit with this heaviness, a grief that I did not understand. As I started to get in touch with that it was apparent that we somehow wandered out of each others lives without conscious participation. Life just happened and we didn’t talk about the things that were happening then in our lives, we just allowed them to send us along unknown pathways with complete disregard for the years of friendship and love. We were clueless that we were allowing life, through the expression of running from these unhealed energies, to remove us from a piece of our own life puzzle where it would then sit unattended and unacknowledged for 25 years. Too young to think we were doing anything out of the ordinary or with any consequence. With all the time I have spent on this journey I was astounded that I could have a piece of my puzzle shoved that deep to not even know it existed. Here it was though, a significant person in my life lost that I never grieved for, there was no death, no moment of departure, no fight, no choice to end a friendship, only behaviors that led to a gradual parting that neither of us were consciously aware of. He remembers it as me disappearing from his life and not knowing what happened to me. I only remember seeing him a few days after the loss of my daughter and being in such a state of raw grief that I felt disconnected and didn’t have the slightest indication I would never see my friend again. Here, slapping me in the face, was an artifact of the past that had managed to escape all detection. Puzzle pieces start to collide together and I can see some things all too clearly.

First I felt the need to apologize to tell him that whatever out of control things I did along the way stemmed from things that came before I met him that he never knew of and whatever damage I may have done in the process of my running had nothing to do with him. He doesn’t remember what those things would be, but I know I left a path of destruction and there certainly is no way he escaped LOL I am the one on this insane healing journey though so he may or may not ever remember that. In any event it had to be said because I do know that things I did are in there somewhere and even if I didn’t apologize now I’ll be doing it when we both get back to spirit, so may as well seize the opportunity.

This was a puzzle piece that took me back to a core issue that I have been aware of and consciously working on since day one on this path. It has annoyed me with its insidious ways, when it is at the same time too blatant and obvious. I have always had to seek out all these tentacles of this issue and the more I find the more there are. I no doubt have automatic writing on this issue that I did not post online and my frustration with spirit of why in the hell I can not clear this. What is left, how can there be more? How did this one thing get so much control over me? I have cleared hundreds of other things that go back further and appear more multidimensional. Even now there is one part of me that doesn’t want to talk about it, that screams SHUT UP, every time the subject comes up. But it is not me and I will not shut up or cower before an artifact of pain. I am too powerful, I know too much. This artifact has been lying to me my whole life about everything that I am. Even when I was aware enough to recognize the lies, they continued, they eat at your heart, your soul, your mind and body. As I have gotten close to the core of all this, it is my physical illness, my emotional dysfunctions, the root of many fears, guilt, shame, and self hatred and addiction. One unspoken trauma sending me into an out of control spiral of life choices that are not representative of who I am.

All of us interested in healing have these traumas of some sort or another; this one though has its damage in the silence, more than the act itself, and lack of appropriate feedback because of this silence from adults who knew better. In the year between my parents divorce and moving to Seattle my mom and I lived in an apartment complex outside of Minneapolis I was in 7th grade a typical 12 year old in most ways. During that time I was raped twice by a 17 year old who lived down the hall, while the 15 year old who lived on the first floor watched apparently learning how this is supposed to work. Because I was a kid who knew nothing, I really couldn’t connect that forced sex was “rape” I think I had some sort of TV idea that rape was being pulled into some alley by a stranger and ending up beaten to pulp in a hospital. After the first time he told me this would never happen again and I was young enough to believe him, only once though! This led though to me taking the responsibility for what happened. I believed him therefore it was my fault. I never told my parents, never told anyone until I was close to 30 years old, by which time I clearly knew it was rape and that it was never my fault, but the damage was already done. That’s a really long time to hold that inside. The damage done by taking responsibility and never getting feedback that is was not my fault was debilitating. The shame and self disgust overwhelming but I knew then what I had been running from and the running had to stop and the healing begin.

Part of this final puzzle piece that came to surface in finding my old friend on facebook was in realizing that all those boys who shared my misspent youth assumed I was a virgin during those years and that in that shame I let them think that. It was easy, there were no questions. To them I just became the girl, the virgin, that wasn’t going to consider having sex with them and they gave me space. Inside I felt dirty and not good enough and as the years passed and I was trying to find my own sexuality and where that fit in to the whole that is me I spun more and more out of control. The lie did more damage the older we got. Eventually I had to have sex with someone I didn’t care about, and who didn’t give a damn about me just to have it over with, with a person who didn’t care who I had ever slept, how, why or at what age, so there would be no lie there in that experience. That out of control decision obviously solved nothing and maybe made things worse or validated some of that shame and guilt I carried. It wasn’t really possible to maintain intimate bonds with a secret that big that goes to the core of who I was. I “moved on” to people and places that didn’t make me feel like a liar but without conscious awareness held on to the shame, guilt and self hated.

Spirit taught me how to speak, how to share things I wanted to keep buried. It was no easy task and I resisted every step along the way and that has caused me all kinds of physical, emotional and mental pain. I’ve not been an easy student at times but eventually I get there. There are gifts still to be awakened in integrating the million insidious aspects of this rape and silence, allowing this artifact to have its place in my consciousness and serve me in a positive way. The first came in learning how to set boundaries, how to fight back, to stand up for myself. Something I am now very good at. I don’t know what all the others are at this moment, some may be things I know about myself but have not yet connected to this core. Others are yet to come because so much of this energy is only now forming a full picture and is in the process of transmuting. All artifacts turn to gifts when given the opportunity to do so. The closer to the core, the more pain that has to be moved through, but the greater the gifts, like being present in moments of joy without shame and guilt. The road can suck, but the destination is worth the difficult journey. Being free of the past is not letting go as we are so often told, it is embracing and giving every aspect of it a part to play in an integrated whole. Receiving the gifts therein free you only from the pain and suffering while allowing the memories to stay and serve you with grace.

Questions from Yelena

Comment:
Engtovo,
I have general questions, which I decided to post here so others can participate/share as well. First one got to do with ascension: When Bestali was talking about forming a sphere, he said that sphere would filter toxins and impurities from the air and water and I believe he used example with pesticides in food.  He didn’t say anything about infections whether viral, bacterial, fungal and I was wondering if said sphere protects against  pathogenic microbes?

Yes and no, when you first pop open the sphere it has to be cleared then then the golden energies are brought in.  Once fully golden it starts to function as a filter but it is porous and many things get through.  Then as you move through you final purification process the filter gets better and better, but the bacteria and fungus and virus are the last aspect because so many of them live the body and may be dormant in some cases and are not just introduced from the outside of the sphere.  Once you have completed final purification then all things are filtered but by this time you are also ascended and can do all kind s of stuff.  So I wish it could help more than it does during the actual process of getting there.  The golden energy of the sphere though can be enacted in blessings over food and water and the blessing will be more powerful with that energy enacted.

On the same note, does every single ailment (and I don’t mean cancer or any type of chronic condition) has a lesson behind it? A simple cold, a twisted ankle, excessive hair lose out of blue? I ruptured my tendon in the gym a year or so ago and exhausted myself trying to figure out what it could mean metaphysically 🙂 I thought that most likely it meant for me to slow down mentally/emotionally on my path. I did; become so calm and worry-free that others interpret it as apathy/indifference (I was quite taken a back myself at first). I believe there is nothing random in general, however there are must be exclusions from the rule. Any thoughts are appreciated.

Not always directly some things can come about simply as a long held pattern that goes to a deeply buried issue that has taken many different expressions in putting the body out of balance.  Sometimes something like a tendon can come about simply because of a moment of emotional or mental imbalance that we all have and instead of stopping and taking that moment to refocus and breathe through it we attempt to force our way past it and the body may end up taking the hit depending on what we are physically doing at the time.  Almost more of a bad timing situation, that doesn’t necessarily have a deep meaning going to a specific event or trauma of the past.  More often than not those kind of things happen when people get pissed off and instead of being with that anger for the moment they continue on with whatever they are doing, but it can happen with and emotion or intense thought pattern.

Last, but not least: time freeze, as if you wake up, look at the clock, go back to sleep, wake up again sometime later and clock shows same time. Or you meditate and computer clock does the same? What does it mean? I could only think of abductions in relation of time freezing…
Thank you, my friend, in advance for your input.
yelena

I’ve had that happen but I guess I never gave it too much thought I just figured I was temporarily out of phase with time, stepped out of this shared frequency for meditation then stepped back in at the same point in “time”  make sense?

always happy to share my take

The Oil Spill & The Call To Sanctuary

I got this email a couple days ago

Just wondering if you have any thoughts or insights to post on your site on the singularity development in regards to to this disastrous oil gush.

I hadn’t given much thought to how the pressure building within the earth for her expansion would effect oil and gas wells before this oil volcano event that is occurring in the gulf.  Spirit has talked a lot about the pressure of rising magma on regular volcanoes and that when the brunt of pressure reached a certain level we would witness many volcanic eruptions in a short period of time.  It only makes sense that the oil and gas pockets in a certain area would be effected the same way.  There is another well in the north sea that the mainstream media seems to be carefully avoiding talking about so no one will ask the question “why are oil wells suddenly under so much extreme pressure?

The current bunch of stories like this one

http://www.enn.com/ecosystems/article/41347

say very little, the original story I saw which I can no longer find showed the platform on fire and surrounded by ships attempting to put it out.  Maybe these were two different incidents and the other one was covered up completely?  At any rate we have intense pressure in two offshore oil regions.

The well in the gulf is very deep and happens to lie right on the tip of one of the first expansion points that will rip open.  It will start in the gulf and rip open through the New Madrid fault system.  All the continents will experience these rips within current plates in an expansion event as well as inter plate rips under the ocean.  For North America the New Madrid area will be the largest inter plate rip.  With this being also seen as one of the first rips to occur, the pressure building in the area is immense.  As the pressure builds further we should expect to see some other deep wells overwhelmed and gradually wells that are shallower.  We could also see some natural gas explosions in the producing areas of the south as well as more of the mud geysers we saw a few years back in Oklahoma that go hand in hand with all New Madrid events, but they will be much greater at this point.

Not to take any responsibility away from BP, as they were drilling at a depth they knew they had no business drilling.  Oil leaking from the ripping expansion points was inevitable.  Because we have wells they were destined to be the first point of exiting oil under pressure.  If they had not been drilling this particular well the first oil pressure explosion and opening rift may have happened in late July to August of this year instead of spring.  The powers that be know of the pressures happening inside the earth.  They have a great deal of scientific data, and all those with access to it are under high level clearance and do not have permission to say anything.  There are people who knew that the result of this drilling would open the rift before it would happen on its own.  They continued anyway.  They are fine with the death or sickness this is creating, and they hoped that opening this rift would release enough pressure to allow them to continue getting oil out of their other wells for as long as possible.  What it may create though is unnecessary precursor quakes along the New Madrid system.

We are in the throws of an extinction level event (E.L.E). So these things are to be expected.  It is difficult and tragic to watch any event that will cause a great loss of life whether that life is human or animal life, but there is more to come.  This is not a set of ordinary earth changes this is an EXPANSION EVENT.  It was an expansion event, not a asteroid or comet that killed the dinosaurs.  Even though this is a E.L.E.  life will go on for the great majority of species, including humans, that is the purpose of the sanctuaries.  There were sanctuaries created back at the time of the dinosaur event.  At that time there were no Dharljas or Avatars from this planet and Avatars from worlds with similar atmospheres came and created the sanctuaries.  Many aspects of this planet (the whole solar system) were experimental and so it has not followed the pathways of many other planetary systems.  The dinosaurs were not included in the sanctuaries because it was determined that they were too large of a species to inhabit a planet of this size, so they were allowed to go extinct.  Most events that have caused smaller extinctions have simply been allowed to follow their natural course of events without any interceding.  This event however is much too large and could cause the end of all human and mammal life without the sanctuaries.

It has been pretty common knowledge through the last 2000 years or so, to those who sought the understanding, that there would be great loss of life at this point and that there would be great “sickness” of the seas and other bodies of water.  This is the start of this “sickness”  We only have around 6 months to singularity and there are very few timelines left to collapse.  The powers that be are desperately attempting to manifest the timelines with the most destruction of human life right now because they truly believe they can be the survivors of this E.L.E.

Let me just say this; no planetary expansion on any planet in the universe has been survived underground.  The force required to bring about the expansion is far too great and even an underground space that survives intact will be filled with too many poisonous gases for a period of time for them to be cleared out before death occurs.  Even underground animals will leave their dens and attempt to survive up top.  No amount of air purification systems will be adequate as there will be breaches in even the best system it is just not possible to be underground. 

But hey… powers that be… feel free to give it a shot :-)  your returning to spirit no matter what you do anyway.

I sure don’t mean to sound morbid or doom and gloom because I am not.  I know that the work that has been done and is still in progress in relation to protection and survival of species through this event is going well.  There are even species thought to be extinct right now that are in fact not extinct at all and there are breading pairs available to protect.  There will be many sanctuaries created.  The vast majority will be unique ecosystems of wilderness that can be held intact for the species living there and will not include mortal humans.  There will be a group of sanctuaries that will be places for humans spread in areas around the world that have a few things in common. 

  • Good soil with low levels of soil contamination
  • Abundant water source
  • Abundant variety of plant species
  • Food growing capacity
  • Abundant wildlife
  • Will be above sea level when things are settled
  • Are within what will be the greater tropical zone of the new equator after the expansion since the event will bring with it a small ice age as things settle

The sanctuaries will be spherical, so they will go into the earth and into the sky and become contained biospheres of life.  Oceans could wash right over them with no effect.  They will free float within the earth crust and so earth movements will be minimized, and will have their own environment and weather systems until the planet has settled and they are able to be released.  A few will have more than one sphere hooked together.  The spheres will vary in size and the human carrying capacity will vary based on the ability to sustain all the species in a given sanctuary for the time required in the particular area.

Ahmuganhai has been sounded!!! 

This is the call to sanctuary.  It is a call to individuals.  While multiple individuals in one family or group of like minded friends may all hear the call it is a call to each individual person.  If you attempt to bring people with you that have not received the call internally they will not make it to sanctuary in one way or another.  Loving someone does not mean it is their path to rebuild the new world.  All who hear the call should be in sanctuary by singularity January 20, 2011 if they want to do it with ease.  After that you will have til June 21, 2011 to attempt to find your way into sanctuary but it will be difficult with all the events that will be happening 

No one can tell you were the sanctuary you are being called to is.  If you have heard the call you will simply go where your heart is saying to go!  Some places of sanctuary may seem contrary to the mental.  The call to sanctuary is based on vibration.  No one below a certain vibration will come to sanctuary period.  The dark is being cleared from the planet and the rebuilding of human society will be done by the highest vibration beings and then those who are light but still working to build up their vibration will be born back into the world highest vibration first.  While those of a lower light vibration will work through things in sprit waiting for their opportunity for a body.

We are on the verge of a large North American event that will change all our lives.  It will be the first domino for those of us living in the United States and Canada.  I hope those of you receiving the call are prepared and I don’t mean for the physical survival, I mean mentally and emotionally as prepared as anyone can be for such events.  You will be required to make choices and move within that atmosphere to get where you need to be so detachment to as great as extent as you can detach is your greatest tool through these events.

I’m looking forward to seeing familiar faces that I have not yet met in this body.  It’s been a long time coming ………….Ahmuganhai

Engtovo

Ahmuganhai Pronounced: ahh mahh gahhn hey

 

More detail on the singularity from January of 2009

http://blog.spiritnexus.org/2009/01/21/president-obama-timeline-singularity/

More info on timeline collapses from December 08

http://blog.spiritnexus.org/2008/12/14/earthquakes-time-line-collapses/

More on the sanctuaries

http://pages.spiritnexus.org/earth-changes/earth_change_news_2009.htm

 

Keep these dates in mind  I personally was given dates in between many of these for some specific earth change type events but I have been told they are for me alone.

July 17-18, 2010 Carl Johan Calleman Breeze of Unity Consciousness

Nov 2, 2010 The 6th night ends all preparedness needs to be done

January 20, 2011 We enter the Singularity all other timelines will have completed the collapse process.  There will only be one timeline at this point through to Venus Transit, at which point we will be offered a few possibilities specific to the earth and things will begin to branch out again.

March 8, 2011 Carl Johan Calleman  Universal Wave Movement

May 21, 2011 While I don’t read much Christian stuff I found a couple dates on a site I came across interesting they are taken from dates projected out in the bible.  This date is the projected date of the “judgment day”

June 21, 2011  Spirit says by this date everyone needs to be in sanctuary that is supposed to be there.

October 21, 2011  The same Christian info has this date as the end of days

October 28, 2011 The Carl Johan Calleman end date of the Mayan Calendar which corresponds with what I have been told for years.  Spirit has always said it would be done and over by the 12-21-2012 date in fact they said it would be all said and done by the second transit of Venus.

June 6, 2012 2nd Transit of Venus

A Transit of Venus happens four times every 234 years! They come in pairs, this one is the 2nd of the pair the counterpart on June 7, 2004.  

The last pair of Venus Transits were December 9, 1874 & December 6, 1882

The next pair is December 11, 2117 &  December 8, 2125 Then June 11, 2247 & June 9, 2255 based on our current calendar which will not be valid IMO so this and all other aspects of the solar system will all be changed along with time itself! 

The fifth world energies hit winter solstice of 1999.  2004 was the first year of the new world, as Venus, the planet of Divine Love transited between us and the sun in June of 2004, an eight years gap to this second transit.   These are the 8 years in which LOVE has changed the very blueprint of our planet, our solar system, and this universe.  This new blueprint it what is manifesting NOW!  At the time of the second transit the 1000 years of peace prophesied by so many cultures truly begins. 

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Sweat Lodge Under Fire

 

I have my issues with Adam Yellowbird and ICA but this is bigger than that.  The idea that any county should regulate sweat lodge ceremony based on some random criteria is not ok.  If they are going to make this a race issue and regulate based on having a tribal card then they discriminate even against many with native blood who simply don’t have enough of any given tribe to qualify for membership.  As members of different tribes intermarry this is getting to be a bigger problem.  You can literally have someone who is half Indian but has blood of four different tribes and can’t qualify for the 1/4 blood quantum of any of the tribes he or she belongs to. 

Whatever my issues have been with Adam they have never been related to his running of a sweat in a responsible way, more along the lines of charging for a seminar that may include a sweat kind of thing.  He is a responsible sweat leader in terms of the healthy and safety of people sweating with him.   I would say if there is one statement in this video that represents my issues it would be that they gathered the leaders together to seek solutions but were not willing to place blame.  James Ray was NOT leading a responsible sweat!  This is not a matter of perspective.  A true sweat should NEVER have the amount of people he had involved and this group should have taken a stand.  Taking stands to be in integrity in that way is not Adam’s thing and that is where we parted ways.

That being said, one corrupt greedy man, James Ray, being irresponsible should not equate to the attempt by Yavapai county to regulate or remove the religious right of anyone else to sweat together.  That Adam is the first person to be challenged on this issue is good.  I hope they do indeed challenge him as to whether he really thinks James Ray was leading an appropriate sweat.  Many people in that area sit on the fence and allow all kinds of inappropriate things to go on around sacred ceremony.  It is time to look at this and truly be willing to self regulate instead of looking the other way.  It seems the unwillingness to do this is what is prompting the general population who knows nothing of sweats to insist the county do it.  Adam has always been willing to mix with the Sedona charlatans as easily as those with true hearts.  When money gets involved and then hand in hand big ego comes, corruption follows.  This unwillingness to discern and hold integrity is the very thing that originally got Adam listed on the Plastic Shaman’s site by really traditional Indians who don’t want any non red people doing anything that appears Native.  I do know that Adam has grown up with Sweats and other Indian ceremony, it truly has been his life.

I’ve been standing against the Sedona greed and corruption that masquerades as spirituality for a REALLY long time.  I hope this is a step that spirit is taking to say to the faithful you cannot continue to sit on the fence.  When you allow certain sacred things to be corrupted and say nothing you become a participant and the ability to do these things in a good way is inevitable removed by some authority figure supposedly for the good of all and to “protect” the ignorant.

On the other side of this coin sits many self righteous Indians who feel the ceremony is only for those with blood of a given tribe.  They have sat there and by attempting to own something sacred that truly belongs to the Creator and not them allowed the corruptions to continue as well.  Sweating is found in many different parts of the world (the original Swedish sauna I’ll mention for one as a person who is Swedish) just as most cultures world wide have drumming traditions and stone circles are found all over the world.  It long past time to accept that all ceremony comes from the Creator not any given tribe, clan or culture.  We should all be working together to be sure that anyone doing any sacred ceremonies are doing them in a safe and loving way and there is NO MONEY INVOLVED.